Reboot, Kick Butt!

I'm writing this blog to process depression, anxiety and my lifelong struggle with weight.  I have good support in my life:  A loving partner, a job with good and kind people, a hand full of dear friends who are there for me and are so good about talking through challenges, a spiritual guide that always makes me giggle when we speak, great teachers that have guided me along the way and a great therapist who has a gift of being gentle in her communication.  As of yet, however, I have not reached my health and fitness vision/goals and I am all too often lost in a feeling of loss and "lack thinking" (lack of motivation, lack of support, lack of energy, lack of resources, lack of good parenting, etc.).  I am going to describe my health, nutrition and fitness history and talk about the moments where I have lost my motivation.  In doing this, I will reflect on ways that I can clear away my clouds and "find my feet" (I actually wrote a song with this title - perhaps I'll post it).

My partner and I did a cleanse after watching "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" and following the "Reboot With Joe" program. It created awesome energy in our home.  We both have reverted to our old ways.  Later, I watched "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead 2" and learned that, if I reverted back to the food I used to eat, that I didn't need to feel guilty about it and that all I had to do was get back on the horse.  It has been so challenging to get back on the horse, but I really want to.  My blog title reminds me about the energy it takes to kick someone in the butt, to get them motivated, to drive them towards change.  I'm going to really look at what motivates me - what motivated me in the past, what motivates me now and what blocks my motivation.  I'm going to look at the core of what happens when our systems reboot and find ways to align my habits and ways of taking action with those ideas.